Monday, October 29, 2007

If I had time, I would write about...

1. since last Monday night, Violet has been sick with the croup. The sickest she's ever been, I tell you. Fortunately, she's on the mend.
2. ...that we've recently seen Little Miss Sunshine (loved it) and Bridge to Terebithia (didn't love it).
3. ...that today, if Linus is awake and not eating, he's crying--the until-he's-purple kind of crying.
4. struggle with how to entertain/play with a 3-year old and a 1-year old at the same time (while caring for a two-month old). Any suggestions would be much appreciated.
5. ...Amelie's incredible imagination.
6. ...that I've been staying up far too late.
7. ...that I usually only take a shower every other day.
8. ...that the girls have been watching far too much t.v. and I feel terribly guilty about it.
9. ...that I feel extremely inadequate and in way over my head a lot of the time.
10. ...that I've started counseling to try to get at the root of and to learn to cope with my anxiety.

Perhaps my next post will be more upbeat.


Sweet November said...

I think showers are totally overrated. Not suggesting to go back to PSC days or anything, but I only take a shower every other day and have done so since (and maybe even before) Dylan was born and no one has commented that I smell.

I hope Violet is feeling better!

I remember folks telling me that the first 2-4 months of having a baby are toughest...makes sense with the lack of sleep and such. I imagine that that that doesn't changed with the number of kids you have. Even though you are an experienced mom, there is this tough time with any new baby that just takes time to get through. I'm sure you want to get back into the groove and establish normality. And I'm sure you just don't want to "get through it" either. I guess my point is that it's not going to be like this always (I can't tell you this by direct experience but I know God is faithful). That's good to get help and please ask for it from your friends as well. Love you Nancy!

Lisa said...

I had both my two and a friend's 2yr old and 10 month old yesterday for 4 hours.. I was ready to tear out my hair. I was thinking of you and how tough it must be right now. Praying for you. I'm in the same boat with most of what you wrote- except the whole new baby part. :) Keeping the gang entertained without the tv is a huge challenge. I can identify with the anxiety- I am always worrying that I've messed them up, that I'm not good enough, etc. I am moving slowly, moment by moment, and thanking God for little things. Today, I am walking around my house wondering who lives here and when the mom is showing up!!

Unknown said...

my key to sanity was to change my expectations. if the kids are alive at the end of the day and they ate 3 meals (or so!) then i decided i had done my job. hang in there nanc, it does get better (i promise).

(i also can't resist adding that at least you aren't trying to sell your house, have a garage sale and downsize to a 4 room apartment at the same time!)

Short Stop said...

I love it that you posted's just real life!! Hope Violet is better now!

As for #9...I struggle with this, too. I think it's part of the journey in the current stage of life we're in.

Megan said...

I don't know if you're familar with CCEF, but I am going to their annual conference tomorrow, titled "Running Scared; Fear, Anxiety and the God of rest". All the sessions are available on CD afterwards -

As for entertainment, I try to make play dates and have activities planned for the morning so we're out of the house for a bit. They always seem to do better if we get out for awhile- even if it's just to the library or store. Sometimes we go to Wal Mart and just play with the toys. No buying, but they like playing with everything. I can only imagine it's just a ton harder with 3 - I have a friend with 3 very close in age and I can tell it's significantly harder than 2. So I think it's pretty normal to feel overwhelmed!
Oh yeah - I never ever shower every day - just seems like a waste of time and energy and water. In fact - I think it's better for your skin to not shower everyday, or maybe I just tell myself that to feel better about it!